I wish you were here...

Sometimes I can't just stand to see you are not here in our life...
I miss you so much brother.
I can remember after his death when all our guests had gone back to their home, for lunch,when I wanted to set the table,I gathered 5 plates, it felt really bad, I started drinking water to ignore my sadness,to sallow my cry...
still after 7 years I feel so bad,I miss him...

These days...

Ramadan is going on and I can not fast,because of stomachache. But my husband continues fasting.



I have been quite busy editing my literature review, finally it is completed. Now I must think on how to write methodology.




At home everything is in peace,thank God, and both of us are trying to keep it this way.
Last Saturday I tried a new dessert named chocolate mousse, it was wonderful, the amazing point was that the recipe was really easy, all the process took about half an hour and the result was satisfying.




My sister-in-law is about to go back to our country. and now she is busy packing her bags...

My brothers engagement will be on late November, I am trying to get there before the date. and I really hope that my husband could come with me. during this Ramadan after praying for health of all family members, I pray for my husband to be successful.
I really love him.

Oh I forgot to mention that we celebrated our 2nd anniversary last month.
Time travels really fast...

Understanding each other

I really wonder why men and women from two different,really different planets, should live together?
I am not saying that I agree with being lesbian or gay, but I mean why there is no real way to understand each other's side?
I believe in almost all cases women have to forget their desires...
I am always asking myself,why he doesn't care? why he doesn't know how to behave in this perticular situation? and so on...
we are different and this is not a problem af any of us...but if we want to live together forever as we promised once, we should find a way to see from each other sight.

Football...

I hate football(soccer) too much... I have always hated it... I really don't see any interesting thing in watching the football matches... and as my great chance! my husband is a football fan...
These days that 2010 FIFA world cup is held in South Africa, the only sound that is heard in our home,is the boring sound of the reporter and the huge fans in the stadium...
Thank God our national football team,couldn't get good result and is not now in the cup games...

Anyway...Everything is in peace and I should say: Thank you my dear God...

alot to do...

I can't believe only one week is left until my in-laws come here...oh my God...I have too many things to do...still the home is a total mess...I don't know why although I clean up every day but the other morning that I wake up I see everything is everywhere...
Tomorrow my husband has got an exam, so this weekend he was stuck to his books, we didn't do even our weekly shopping, maybe tomorrow evening we go for it.

I do am really excited about having some guests specially whom I love. Being all alone in this part of the world is boring,every day is the same. By having guests we will go to show the beauties of Malaysia to them so actually we are on holiday too...
our plan is to visit Kuala Lumpur well,and maybe we can go to Langkawi, I've heard it is really amazing and fresh and full of pretty environment.

and one important thing that all women are interested in it,is that there are lots of cheap shops...

:)